what a life

What am i thinking? I take a look at where i am at and all i can think of is where i can't to be, it seems i can't just see where i am and be glad i am here. I could be some one else in some other place in a shittier situation, but i am not. I listen to my sister and here life and though i love her i would never want to be her or deal with her life problems, i am just not cut out for that. I am cut out for giving a generic compassion between the hours of 10p and 6a.
I pass off my rude behavior as me just being a bitch or what ever synonym you may choose to call it. Over all I think it is because i just don't want to deal with the dram of humanity, not saying i don't have any humanity it is just hard for me to stomach another person no standing up for themselves. That is it, i dislike people making excuses for others poor behavior to them of all people. If some one treats you so poorly that you they literally affect your emotions on a regular basis, sorry hun something needs to and should change.

to the people on my mind when I wrote this... I love you, truly love you and I hope the best comes from your situation.