Thursday, March 18, 2010

I don't think I can tolerate this

So My mum has a Bf/fiance. She hasn't been with any one since my dad 10yr+. I feel she is rushing things they are planning on getting married in May. They have know each other a little over a month and have been dating maybe 5 weeks.

It seems to me that the attitude she is putting off on this whole thing is pure defense. Instead of listening to our points of view and attempting to see it our way it seems she is saying "I hear you, and your opinions, I don't agree so I am going to do it my way". I told a friend that her actions remind me of how I was in high school except I didn't even pretend to care or hear any one or there opinion. I was going to do what I wanted to do and I didn't care who or what got in the way. Looking back Quite selfish if I do say so myself.

Other news: So it seems to me that every one I know is hooking up, I mean pairing off. It is scary. In high school every one was getting knocked up, now the ones who didn't get knocked up are getting Married, moving in together.

I guess I just feel alone here. I haven't found any one that I can relate to. I am an off beat person, I am strange and I enjoy it. All the people I have met are ether students or business people. They are here because of there jobs or to find jobs in the fields they revived there degrees in.

Why I am here: I am here because back in 2008 I had to have my tonsils removed. I had been sick for about 6 months. Two weeks before my scheduled surgery I was fired from my job. I didn't feel that it was a good idea to go out and look for a new job because in two weeks I would have to take at least 6 weeks off from the new job (turned out that I was un able to leave the house for about a month with out getting sick an hour into the trip, and I couldn't talk for 6 weeks).
So I went ahead with my surgery with no money to pay for it. Once I could speak again I got a part time job being paid about $7/hr.

Back home I am a CNA (certified nurses aid). Looking back now I should have gone right back into working at retirement homes. They pay at least $10/hr even though it is hard work it is steady and no matter what the economy does you will always have a job. But I didn't do that I jumped around group homes and assisted living jobs for a year and a half until I landed at Evergreen Health and Rehab (I really like working there and because I had been fried from so many other jobs they gave me a big chance!).

So I had the surgery and then I decided to ignore the bills. Not the best idea out there. By Oct 2009 one of the collection companies seized my bank account at least by this point I was making $11/hr and I could pay some money to them.

Back to why I am here. I have about 10,000 in debt I know to some of you that isn't much but for me it is huge. I am only 21 and to have that debt just sickens me. That is why I am here I can make money faster and easier her and because I am living with my sister I have virtually no living expenses and the cost of living is much lower here. So the ability for me to save money is greater. I plan on being here a little under a year I figure I can have my bills paid off in 6 months and then save enough cash to go home, rent an apartment, work part time and go back to school.

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