Moving on after this break up

Hello,

So in the past few weeks My Mom has decided to get married, not just married but married to a man she has only know for over two months, Married in 52 days from NOW.

So I am breaking up with her. Not over her getting married I am breaking up with her over her pure lack of consideration and the attitude of "I am going to do what I Damn well please and if you don't like it, well you can shove it up your a**".


I had to be around for my moms "break up" with my father. Not just around but I sat in my pretend "happy" little world and watched it shatter into thousands of pieces. During that time it was hard for me. I was going into my teen years, my siblings were leaving as fast as they could. I didn't know who I was or where I belonged, or even who's side to be on, if any. My once familiar and cozy world was unrecognizable, and cold.

When I was a child my mom and I were not close. Looking back on it now I can say that I felt that to my mom I was a burden. She didn't spend time with me so I was with out a doubt a daddies girl. I did almost everything with my dad. We hunted, fished, he let me drive (starting at 11). We would go ice skating or canoeing down the river.

When my Mom kicked my dad out of the house when I was 12 that began to change. We lived in separate houses. Soon he lived at home and I was not allowed to. {Random thought: The day we moved out of "our" house when I was 13ish I didn't realize that, that was going to be the last time I would live there. The last Christmas or birthday. In a way the last time my feet/mind would have a solid concept of "home"}. So we (mom and I) spent the next 5-6 years jumping around a new house almost every year. And Me at 12 had to grow up, the familiar family things that my siblings grew up with I didn't have the privilege of.

I took my new role (no training offered) with out help. I know people would see how my mom and I interacted and I was labeled "rude" but in all honesty we were not "MOTHER/DAUGHTER" we were house partners. She didn't want to be around me, and I didn't want to be around her. Given we did at times enjoy each other. Over the 9 years we were placed with each other we did get close.

So with all that said. I am doing what I feel is emotionally healthiest for me. I feel let down and shut out. I spent 21 years 9 close years with her and she has basically given me no time to be a part of her "new" life. I guess I thought I was a big part of her life but apparently either I wasn't or I just wasn't a big enough part.